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Saturday, May 3, 2008

hey people. guess what.
joshua has a girlfriend now.
grrr. this sucks man.
=/
i was talking to pei lin over the phone last night. whhheee she wants to go to red rain concert with me! yay. =)
i miss the old times, when i was sec1 and everything seemed right. (except the after-june part,everything went wrong)
ahya. sian.
now its like everyone has a girlfriend or boyfriend, except those in church. yeah.
and my close friends luhs.
haiya.
this is life i guess.
oh ya, i was talking to pei lin, then i was sad mah, coz JOSHUA HAS A GF! =(
then hor, she said i didnt sound sad. lols. according to her i was supposed to die or something lah.
oh wells.
i wouldnt die for a guy, unless neccessary, i sound like i've got many many many lives. haha.
i tried to do loads of things to keep my mind off him luhhh.
i washed my hair, i did household chores and loads of stuff. actually i wasnt really thinking about the fact that i had no chance to be with him.
its the fact that he told me,"look i dont wanna flirt anymore" that kinda crap. then a few days later he writes on his msn msg,"i love you" and some other stuff.
the lucky girl's definitely not me.
so much for not flirting.
lol. its okay, i've got Jesus! =)

yeah.
pei lin was telling me,"dont worry, you've still got a guy waiting for you."
thanks alot for that.
he aint that patient. gosh.
i dumped him, how could he still wait??
lols.
i bet he was shocked when he first set eyes on me.
lols.

i make goooood first impressions you know. haha.
one of which was to tuck in my shirt when emily pointed at me.
but the guy isnt ghim choon.
rou wen would kill me.
kinda. xD

haiz.
i was reading through my diary just now.
ohmygosh i didnt know i had crushes on so many people.
i was so disgusted when i was reading through it coz i was singing their praises.
eckkkk!
=)

i cant think of any more excuses to tell my parents to let me go to church.
very depressed lahhh!

there's science exam this monday. i dont know whether i can do well.
=(

yesterday i went to church. (:
and i had maths exam. i knew how to do four questions out of 14 and the paper was worth 50 marks.
lemme guess, im going to flunk my maths.
actually it was an improvement lah.
the last maths paper i had, i only knew how to do 2 questions.
its double~~!!

i didnt know i knew so many sec1s.
wow.
yeah.

im depressed, joshua has a girlfriend. WAAAAAAH!
im depressed, im left with 2 guys.
im depressed, i got "dumped" by joshua.
im depressed, i dont know how to do my maths.
im depressed, my mum's reluctant to give me maths tuition.
im depressed, my form teacher only knew i was peer councillor earlier this week only, when i have been wearing the badge since somewhere between feb-march.
im depressed, i cant attend to services.
im depressed, pei lin rubs salt to my wound.
im depressed, i miss my last one.:x
im depressed, cherie wants to go to my church but i cant. =(
im depressed, im afraid red rain concert crashes with thailand flight.
im depressed, my mum's resigned, probably i'll get less money and i cant go out as often.

i am loved, by manymanymany people.
i am loved, by samueltanweikhang. muahahhahaaa!
i am loved, by those who tell me to cheer up after the tragedy.
i am loved, by my hamster. hahaahahaa.
i am loved, by loads of things.
i am loved, by random children. (: im a very nice jie jie. hehes.

... and you are loved! x)

aiya, that wass sooo random luh. xD
im having fever.
goodness, im always sick.

hahas.

-jia en-

(Genevieve) ♥ Saturday, May 03, 2008